What's up with this hour?

I don't think its a coincidence that I get pulled into writing here at 4 a.m. each time...

I've been doing much better with sleeping lately (took melatonin for a few days, then had a lot of work which had me tired and in bed by 2 most nights!)...

Maybe 4 is my cutoff... it's the hour where I start getting nervous that I'm not sleepy yet and it's when I feel that I've crossed the line from 'just staying up' to 'insomnia'. Still, there are nights and days like today, where I purposely stay up because I cherish the silence. There's such a sense of freedom at this late/early (all a matter of perspective!) hour.I feel that these minutes are mine to do with as I like with no interruptions and no responsibility and no guilt. The problem is that I can't quit worrying about wasting the next day waking up late and feeling tired, or about my stamina when I have a long day of work.

Well, just to update then... Things (whatever those, capitalized, Things may be) are calmer. Nothing has been resolved yet, but I'm probably in a very rare place in my life: It's not often that I feel 'caught up'. I am not currently procrastinating anything, everything has been done- which is probably why I'm sleeping better.

For now, I'll leave here a very relaxing audio
Paul McKenna- Deep Relaxation (i couldn't find a link to the actual audio, only downloadable versions).
(it never managed to get me to sleep but it did help me calm my mind a couple of times, and a lot of my clients find it helpful)