Welcome :)

I'm not really sure why I'm doing this... This, meaning blogging :)
Its a first for me! All I know is that I often have this nagging feeling that I have something to say and that I want to share this something with others... And yet, I'm not the type of person who can say these things face to face. Its very ironic, in fact, when you consider the fact that my work is centered around 'talking' and helping others to open up.  Yet somehow I still find it extremely hard to do. Even when I finally say to someone near me that I'm not well, or I'm having a hard time, I downplay it so much that they don't take me seriously or I tell them once its over so that I'm not even very emotional while reporting it.

Its always been that way for me. I've always felt that I need to be the strong one- In fact, I'm always being told how strong I seem/am, and I guess that hearing this makes it that much harder to step up and say 'hey, I'm NOT that strong, I am faltering here...'

Its been a life-long struggle to treat myself with respect and kindness, to not take on so much for others that I have no space left for myself, to say NO, I can't/don't want to/won't...

And writing has always helped me discover these things in myself and helped me maintain a sane balance. So since I'm on my computer almost 24/7 (seriously), I figure why not write things down here. Maybe next time I'm awake in the middle of the night, I can send all the crazy thoughts scurrying around in my brain out into this vast, great Internet world. And even if nobody reads it but me, even if nobody knows but me... I think it might help!  (Truth be told, I'm a bit nervous with the idea of anybody reading this lol!!) (so, Dear Reader - as Stephen King addresses his beloved audience- do set kind eyes upon my fledgling blogger career!)

Ok, I think the intro is done :)
xoxo
Your Canary-Yellow